Dear Confusing anon,
As long as it’s not fake… Lol. Our brain takes great pleasure into playing tricks on us, I learned that the only way to convince yourself over “this or that” is to play the same game with your brain. Flip a quarter over the matter, if it lands on face over “this and not that” and you hesitate on taking action, that’s mean you should go the opposite way.
Sincerely, Get your sh*t together.